Eureka...err, sort of!

That's right party people, I think I *might* be making my way out of the funk.

I KNOW!

It's huge, right?

A few thoughts/self realizations as I drag myself out of the deep dark hole of funktitude,

one armful of dirt at a time.

*I am a control freak*

It's true. About everything. You can guarantee that when I'm in a mood, 99.9% of the time it's because something is out of my control, there's something not right and I can't fix it. It doesn't even have to be huge. It can be anything, though the huge things are much, much worse.

*Writing is my outlet*

No shock there, right? But here's the problem. When my well planned out world comes crashing down because I realize I can't control every aspect of it as described above, I turn to writing to express those emotions. But what happens when writers block strikes, I'm not inspired, and the words won't come?

I go deeper into the deep dark spiral of funk.

So is it really any surprise that the solution is just the reverse???

It shouldn't be, but it always is. Because I have to be patient.

*Patience is a virtue I rarely have*

I can be patient with others (to a certain extent), but when it comes to myself, I'm pretty ruthless, mostly because of the control issues. I should be able to fix it, to be happy, to pull myself out without anyone or anything else. But the reality is often I can't. Often I need friends with more patience than I have for myself.

So, after a few weeks of neediness and whininess and just plain out miserableness,

I've started to smile again. On a regular basis and everything.

And with the smiling, comes the writing.

And all those pesky things I couldn't control...the ones that were bothering me?

They're still there, only now I'm not so worried about them. I know things will work out, that it will all be okay. I don't believe much in coincidences, I happen to think everything in life happens for a reason, sometimes it just takes us longer to find them than others. But while I search for the answers and solutions, I think I'll go ahead and enjoy myself.

Isn't that what it's all about?

So what have I missed lately? Anything good?

In a funk...

I am. I have to admit it.

Something is off.

It took me a while to really notice it, to come to terms that something just wasn't right, but it's true.

Did you know? You probably did.

Maybe you sensed my absence and wondered to yourself why I wasn't as bubbly and happy as you're used to in my posts?

I swear I'm always the last to know.

I'm pretty sure someone should invent a "funk-meter" that would allow those of us that live in denial too long to know how deep we're treading before we get to the bottom and wonder how we got there. Right?

My point is that, yes, my name is Kristi and I'm currently in a bit of a funk.

*raises hand appropriately, while looking guilty*

I do hereby solemnly swear that I will work towards getting myself out of said funk, and promise to keep the whining and negativity to a minimum whenever possible.

As always, hugs are necessary and encouraged...even bloggy ones.

And advice? Yes, please. What do you do when life gets you down, when things aren't just right?

How do you pick yourself up?

Admitting it is the first step to recovery, right?

PS-Labeling this post "funk" actually made me giggle.

See, I'm better already.

(almost)

Winner of Delirium!

First of all,

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY

to all you Americans out there, hope you had a terrific holiday.

Mine was full of laundry, yardwork, and cocktails. ;P

As promised, it's time to announce the

winner of what I consider a truly fantastic book.

The lucky person (chosen by randomizer.org) is:

GFC follower skkorman!

I'll email you and get your book on it's way to your doorstep.

Can't wait to hear what you think.

Congrats!

Hope everyone had a terrific weekend...I'll make the blog rounds as soon as I catch

up...been missing you all lately!

How is everything out there? Any news I missed?

DO TELL!